Sorry…not Sorry

I’m back! I took a short hiatus to truly disconnect – Hawaii is not a bad place to do that. There is a missing menu for last week, since I didn’t cook. I know it’s weird, but I missed not cooking. I’m feeling refreshed and ready to dive back into things. This morning, I made this amazing throw together egg scramble to eat by itself, in a tortilla or on some sourdough bread with a little bacon for a sandwich.

Before I dive into what’s on my mind, can we take a minute to look at that flower that I took a picture of in Hawaii. That flower is incredibly beautiful to me – so much color and vibrance, and yet slightly different from the others on the bush and surrounded by SO many other magnificent flowers and greenery. I’m always fascinated by nature. It’s amazing to me what flowers, trees and plants endure and yet are still so stunning. If we could only look at ourselves as we do at nature – MILLIONS of variations, oh the stories we could all tell…and yet ALL so incredibly beautiful and unique. We need to embrace what we feel might be an imperfection – we all have such different gifts to offer the world…just like these beautiful flowers.

So, I’ve been consciously working on pulling back on the use of the word ‘Sorry’. It was brought to my attention how often I say this word. Funny that when I was just in Hawaii, I was adding all of these delicious toppings to my salad at a buffet style breakfast and this woman was patiently waiting. I was rushing and said, ‘Sorry, I’m almost done’ (I mean the fresh toppings were all my favs), she touched my arm and said in a very calm voice ‘what are you sorry for, you don’t need to apologize’. There it was again, someone else telling me to not apologize. I forget the statistic, but it takes multiple times or the right timing to hear something before it kicks in (kind of like that brick to the head theory). That one hit me differently. Why am I apologizing – it truly sounds so silly. Instead, I should have said to her ‘I hope there’s some left for you’ – haha.

I’ve been thinking so much about the word ‘Sorry’. I mean, if you have truly hurt someone, then that is the best word to use. Sorry is a word I wanted to genuinely hear for SO many years and yet I would be the one apologizing to overcompensate…and I wasn’t doing anything wrong. Sorry is not only a word but an action. If someone says Sorry and continues to do the same thing they are apologizing for, who is really at fault here? Habits are hard to break for sure, BUT when you surround yourself with like-minded supportive people, your eyes will be opened to doing things a different way, a more healthy way of thinking and living.

Healing isn’t a linear process guys…we are forever learning and evolving. Give yourself a break and for goodness sake, stop apologizing. BE YOU and don’t apologize for it! If you catch me apologizing when it isn’t necessary, please call me out. I’m a work in progress and want to be the best version of myself I can.

Book update: I just finished the second book in the Housemaid series and it was SO good. Picking out a new book this weekend (suggestions welcome). I will wait to read book 3 of the Housemaid series, I like to change it up sometimes.

Tip of the week: Don’t forget to get yourself some fresh flowers (on my list for today). Also, a suggestion…I made a reverse to do list today. I started writing down all the things I’ve done, as I’ve done them. Wow – give it a shot. You do more than you think you do, be kind to yourself and be grateful for where you are RIGHT NOW!

Lastly, do you have something to share? Do you have a habit (such as saying ‘I’m Sorry’ all the time) that you want to try to break yourself of? We are all in this together. Keep sending your comments and messages, I love to read them. Have a magical week ahead. I know I will definitely be having a short manifestation meditation at 11:11 on 11/11! Yes, I’m that girl!